waking jonas is dealing with that outfit.

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i considered for a while, why i haven’t as of yet made mention of the events that occurred monday and came to realize that i often avoid immediately documenting my reaction. at first i would assume that things too powerful to describe without sounding feeble are never done a favor by immediate analysis. especially mine.

when i say my heart go out to the families of all who died in the tragedy, i am one voice among many. many of those who were killed are the same age as my sister. you cannot replace a person you cannot replace their memories or their potential. but you cannot love a person without taking a part of them with you. and it will be with you as long as you live.

i’ve read a few thoughtful reponses, moby and kat pointed out that as a society we have to establish not only responsibility but blame. you can blame someone who is dead, but they will never respond. and a response is what is sought. there are immediate politics to tragedy in america, and perhaps that is what drives the wounds so deep.

great post and i totally get what you’re saying; i still haven’t mentioned this horrific event in any of my blogs and i doubt that i will. there are so many mixed emotions swirling around me - like the fact that my niece is going up to college this fall which totally freaked me out, i just kept imagining that it was her in that situation and then there’s the fact that i’m a korean american and the guilt of an entire race seems to be ambiguously weighing on my mind…life goes on, it has too.

thanks for your comment! i felt the same way about my sister when she left for college. i wish i could keep all the harm from ever reaching her but there is just no stopping everything.

it’s hard to understand why anything that happens in america almost immediately becomes an issue of race, or if not race then by class, generation, or gender.

even the shooter did this. according to his “message” this was the act of an individual who acted on his rage against anyone he felt fit his description of privilege or “debauchery”. (and though this man is said to come from poverty he was in college, which i consider a privilege.)